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Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
4:40 am	I live? Ok.. so I live.. I quit my job at the vet.. loooong story. The mother going insane bit fell through.. I really need to learn to just not believe what my family says. bleh.. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
9:06 pm	Fun Stuff Ok.. so I never post on this thing... we all know this.. but I need to vent tonight. Firstly, my mom got into a row with my brother in law, David, today. She quit her job at Booksmart.. My sister is hoping to get Mom to return.. I'm not sure how likely that is. Secondly, Mom wants to sell the house and move to NC. Which means that I'm going to be needing a roomie and an apartment soon. Also I'm going to have to get rid of all my animals.. I suppose I'll rent a booth at a reptile show.. that should take care of most of them.. as for Holly, Beauty, Smokey, and maybe Jasper.. I don't know.. I'm sure I can find a home for Jasper.. the others... not so sure. I hope to be able to keep Monty... worse to worse I can board him at the reptile store till I figure out what to do with him.. it's only $1 a day... it's not bad... So I really don't know if this is going to go through.. I don't know what my mom is planning.. I jsut don't know.. but at the moment I'm in a major funk.. Very tempted to go out and buy a pack of cigarettes and hunt down some liquor... but I know that I won't... so I'm just going to sit here and be mopey... Gimme a call if anyone is bored.. I doubt that I'm going anywhere tonight.. unless it's to the Mizner Park parking garages.. but the last time I did that alone to hide from the world, a security guard came up and wouldn't leave till I did cause he thought I was going to jump over the side.. I wasn't but he didn't believe me. So... Yeah... Talk to me if you want to... Ta Current Mood: distressed Current Music: Pachelbel's cannon in D minor (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 8th, 2006
11:01 pm	I don't know why I still write on this thing Ok.. so life's doing well.. Sad to say I miss school.. my mind won't stop nagging me to apply to PBCC or BCC so I'll be doing that soon. Which means that I'm going to have to dig through the amazon to find the W-2s ... yay.. refile FASFA.. grr.. My mind is also getting at me for my weight..(funny because I haven't gained weight in 3 years x.x) dreams, little quirks.. so I'll be hunting down a gym too.. probably this weekend. Work is doing well.. My latest hi profile projects have been setting up the new fax machine, rewriting the website (not posted yet), and being the entire heavy labor department =P Creatures are doing well.. need more money.. Ray said he'd help out but I've not seen any of it.. so I'm not holding my breath.. Went and met Jamie in Orlando last weekend for Gay Days.. it was fun despite a horrendous pool party and the fact that I stupidly only brought tiedye to wear cause the rest of my wardrobe was dirty.. I'm missing everyone.. I've been hanging out with Jamie, George, Marc, Jack.. and that's about it.. I miss the other people.. I miss being able to show that facet of my personality.. I miss being goofy. I love the Jamie and the Marc because I know that I can be whatever when in their company, but with some of the others I have to stem my strangeness.. eh.. oh well. Missing the Adelle for the biting sarcasm.. left alone with my mom.. eck. I'm learning the hard part of my job now also.. I'm getting to know the people as well as the animals.. and if there's a really sweet creature with a nasty human.. I have to hold my tongue.. or if something happens to the creatures.. it's hard.. after a couple visits the pets become your own.. To top it off, my coworker was in a story telling mood today and she related to Bryee (the other new girl) and myself the story of Chloe, the only cat we've lost after a spay.. she ripped her stitches out.. when they found her in the morning her guts we all out and mixed with cat litter and she was alert and purring.. Julita (my coworker) says they did surgery and put the intestines back in and removed the kitty litter and had to remove sections of the intestines as well.. and Chloe was awake throughout the whole thing.. and just kept purring on the table.. She eventually died from liver failure.. her skin became necrotic.. it'd tear if you so much as touched it.. they tried to give her subcutaneous fluids but her skin was so thin that the pressure of the fluids just ripped it open.. ugh.. I'm glad that was before my time there.. I'm sorry that I never got to know Chloe, and I wonder if I'll be able to handle it so well when I'm faced with something like that. Mixed feelings. Other than all that.. I'm just in a mental rut.. I don't know why.. I suppose that once I hit the gym and get into school and start doing more stuff I'll feel better.. the old keep yourself too busy to think plan. But my plan for the moment is to go out to the car and get my book.. I just read a headline that is interesting: A woman, angry that her chihuahua puppy died took it back to the breeder's house, broke down the door and started beating the breeder with the dead puppy... Makes me proud to be human -.- Current Mood: blank Current Music: Voltaire- The Chosen (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
11:23 pm	Monotony Life continues. I'm getting over being sick.. again.. God my immune system must be on vacation in Tahiti or something.. So.. work is going well.. ingratiating myself with the clients and the doctor.. I have a bad habit of scaring him with some of the things that I notice.. For example the other day I pulled a tick the size of this period (.) off of a dog.. I felt it and I plucked it.. and we checked the dog and it turned out that he had a bunch of ticks, and due to the ticks, he had worms.. which were eating away in his intestines so badly that he was 10lbs under weight and could barely stand.. It was a beagle. So it's a good thing.. but no one can figure out how I manage to locate things that are so small.. I guess that infestation of reptile mites was a good thing ^^ it gave me the experience to know what to feel for I think. That's my story anyway.. it is possible that I'm just a freak with hypersensitive fingertips.. I dunno. Other than that I'm doing well... I'm finally getting anxious about school.. I think I'll spend most of the day at the library on Wednesday.. see if I can't refillout my FASFA and try to apply to PBCC. I should only need my mother's and my W-2's right? I really can't remember from filling it out the first time.. mainly because most of it was done for me by a friend and I kind of stared out into space.. That's one of my new goals in life.. become rich enough to comfortably afford an accountant.. I hate paperwork x.x as if that wasn't obvious by the loads of homework I did in the blink of an eye throughout school.. Well that's about it.. Ta ta Current Mood: bored but wired on caffiene Current Music: Bon Jovi- It's my life (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 26th, 2006
10:00 pm	I really don't like my last post I don't.. way too whiny.. why didn't anyone bitchslap me for it? bah Lessee.. For one thing.. I'm still alive.. I've been laying low mainly because the thought of the computer has depressed me lately.. I don't know why.. I just look at it and I want to go to sleep.. I'm weird. Also I've been hanging out with the Jamie, Jack, Marc, Kevin.. yeah that's about it.. Marc is Jamie's roommate, Jack is Jamie's boyfriend, and Kevin is Jack's 45yr old gay roommate.. who's really cool and he is my adoptive jewish mother =P He text messages me constantly to see how I'm doing.. Tis kinda sweet.. kinda annoying.. but I know it's meant well. He also says that he'll teach me how to play the guitar and the bass if I'd like to learn.. YAY I'm going to get smacked by a few for this part.. I adopted another creature.. Stacey was going to put him in the freezer unless I took him.. so I'm going to try to find him a good home.. He's a juvie bearded dragon with a twisted spine.. he eats like a horse.. he's hyper as hell.. bright, alert and responsive.. And very cute. Sunny says hi.. she's bobbing at the screen. Quagmire got his stitches out and is doing well.. he ate four fuzzies yesterday.. Work is doing well.. Other than the fact that I'm covered in injuries.. pets do NOT like being held down for anything..And I'm the biggest assistant there.. so.. I get all the fun creatures.. psycho cats, hybrid dogs, pit bulls..etc etc.. Actually I haven't met a mean pit bull while working at the vet.. Actually the little bitchy poodle wannabes are the evil things.. those and minipins.. they have it out for me. Jamie and Marc keep asking me to move in with them.. I'm very tempted.. I'd be sharing Jamie's room.. but I've done so before.. and I can get him a little "Do NOT disturb" sign.. or something to hang on the door.. The only thing that's holding me at home now are my creatures.. I should have only one more full check to sign over to my mother.. and then I can start saving again.. Everyone should be proud of me... I've been living off of 9$ for the last 3 weeks.. Admittedly mom's bought dinner.. but "dinner" has been leftovers for those weeks.. and even tonight I had leftover fried rice.. YAY.. eck.. Is there anything more I can add to waste space? I can't think of any.. so I'll say tata for now Current Mood: I stare at walls Current Music: Type O Negative- Wolf Moon (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 5th, 2006
1:39 am	Covering my head and shoulders in cocoa butter x.x I'm a crisp.. I should've known better than to stay 5 hours in the sun when I'm... well... me. I didn't think it was this bad but I can't go back to sleep cause my couch feels like sandpaper. So here I sit.. And although I'm trying to be all happy and whatever and listening to the Neverending Story theme and etc.. I can't help but think of the chorus to Bon Jovi's "Last Cigarette"; Your love's like one last cigarette, last cigarette I will savor it, the last cigarette Take it in and hold your breath, hope it never ends But when it's gone, its gone The last cigarette I know I don't smoke.. but I'm a decent empath.. and I can understand what the lyrics mean.. And you know, for once in my life I'm happy and somewhat relieved that Jamie's not speaking to me at the moment.. he's too involved with his new guy.. but regardless.. He has allmy liquor at his apartment.. and I think that, had he been in touch with me for the last few days.. I don't know if I could've held myself from getting drunk and staying that way through this weekend.. As it is I'm proud that I haven't broken into Adelle's Goldschlager.. or mom's crappy whiskey for that matter.. It would be nice.. to be lost in the oblivion where nothing could touch me.. where everything is hilarious, where everyone is your best friend and you're loved by all.. But I know that my mom and siblings... and probably the Ray and the Jessi would be grumpy at me.. I know I worry them as it is with my occaisional drinks.. Luckily whenever I do partake I have a reason to stay in a partially clear mind.. I worry about the Jamie..he's way too much of a lightweight.. I worry that he and I will enjoy the spirits a little too much one night and passout on the floor or in his room as we do.. and I won't be able to wake him in the morning.. So I've never actually overdone it..Much to my dismay.. But I know that with my luck as soon as I let my guard down my fears will come true. So I keep myself sober enough that.. if I were forced to drive him to the hospital like a bat out of hell.. I could, hopefully without running into some stationary object along the way. Also I have told my mom that I have a little from time to time.. and she's ok with it.. I explained my reasoning of if I drink.. I spend the night. She said it was cool and I doubt she likes trusting me to my judgement.. she said as much actually..but tough.. I love my mom.. but I have to get her to see that I can make good decisions on my own.. and in order to do that I have to force myself to make decisions.. which I hate doing.. possibly because I don't ever have to do it in my family.. they just tell me what to do until I fight back.. which I've been doing more often than I like.. Oh well.. I've gone through a fourth of the jar of cocoa butter... so I think I'll go try to sleep on my sandpaper again.. or maybe I'll play with my MP3 doohicky.. there's nothing better to inspire exhaustion than to fiddle with some technological thingy of which you have no idea how to do anything.. yay.. Current Mood: Isolated in my mind Current Music: Metalllica- Nothing Else Matters (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 27th, 2006
9:13 pm	Still living Well.. it's been a fun few days..I enjoyed seeing the Ellie, and the RenFest was much fun.. I got a raise today.. I'm now worth $9.50/hr.. YAY.. I may or may not be able to get a table for the march 18th reptile show.. I'm working on it. Other than that.. there's not much to report.. Here's my schedule for the week: Mon- 7:45-1, 4-7 Tues- 7:45-5 Wed- 7:45-1, 4-7 Thurs- 7:45-2 Fri- OFF Sat- OFF Sun- OFF I have a three day weekend.. what am I going to do with myself? Eh.. who am I kidding.. the RenFest is on.. and Meet Me Downtown is this weekend.. I'll be makin money with my snakey for some of the weekend.. And for those who care, Quagmire is doing quite well.. he bit me today when I gave him his shot.. and then proceeded to scheidt on me.. he's feeling better Current Mood: Hoping for something to do Current Music: Flogging Molly- Devil's Dance Floor (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
9:55 pm	Dr. Catherine Oki ladies and Gents.. Dr. Catherine is official.. unofficially that is. Here's what's been going on.. Adelle and Dave's bearded dragon Quagmire broke his leg last weekend.. It then became Gangreneous.. in layman's terms.. it was dead and rotting while still attached to his body.. not a good thing. So I took him down to the emergency vet clinic on Cypress in Pompano.. He stayed there a couple days and was given antibiotics and kept warm.. I then took him up to Dr. Wegee in Lake Worth.. he covered for Dr. Lazlo over the winter break.. cause Dr. Laz went to Hungry.. Anyway.. Dr. Wegee remembered me.. and had seen Quag before.. he tried to help me deworm Quag.. we still don't know if he has worms.. but there's no other real reason why he eats and doesn't gain weight.. regardless.. Dr. W and I took off Quag's bandage.. and his arm came off with it.. up to the elbow.. The smell was awful.. and it was oozy and enough to make ME pull a girlish EW! Dr. Wegee was nice and lasered the rest of the arm off.. and stitched Quaggy back up. We gave Quaggy an appitite stimulant, a dewormer, and an antibiotic.. Currently, he's doing well..his color os a lot better.. he's still not drinking or eating on his own.. but I hijacked a few needle-less syringes from work and I made Bearded Dragon Soup.. I mixed up Adult beardie pellets, Juvie Pellets, Calcium powder and water.. mushed it all together and stuff it down the throat.. And suprisingly.. he's eating it almost willingly.. I'm also using it to boost up the baby beardie of mine.. he has a missing foot.. I call him Tripod because of a lack of imagination. All in all it's looking promising! YAY Oki I'm done now Oh yeah.. and I get to give Quaggy an injection of Antibiotics every day.. I've done one so far and it went over well.. he wasn't happy.. but I didn't hurt him, he didn't hurt himself.. and he didn't hurt me.. YAY Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Flogging Molly- Devil's Dance Floor (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
9:34 pm	Oki.. so I got the bill for this weeks BMW repairs.. it's going to be around $900... yay.. I've paid mom a total of $200 so far towards my debt.. woot.. so my debt is now up to.. about $2600 .. and that's to my mom, to Cori and to Ray.. If I've forgotten anyone please tell me.. OH and a $200 vet bill cause I took Jasper in for an exam and vaccines.. grrrrr Today was my nephew's 2nd Birthday.. Nathan turned into a terrble two.. dun dun dun.. And I'll probably be taking the job at Longhorns.. if I can verify with the schedule-maker person at the Vet that my schedule is set in stone.. if it is I should be able to work Thursday night after 6, all day friday, Saturday night.. and all day sunday.. I think I've got a grand total of $40 in the bank.. if that.. so I need the extra moolah and I'm not foolish enough to go back to work at the bookstore. ugh.. That's about it.. Adios for now Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Mark Knopfler- Done with Bonaparte (Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
10:42 pm	I'm wasting time.. YAY Ok.. So I got word back from my Aunt.. she says that Jamie and I can come up there anytime we want... and just because so many of our chosen family members are there.. I'm gonna try to talk Jamie into a pit stop in Orlando.. and do a mass lunch thing.. any and all of you people to whom I am referring.. gimme input.. Other than that.. um.. So we took my 325i in for 900$ worth of work.. got that stuff fixed.. it ran wonderfully for a couple days.. and the newest on the list of expenses is a new radiator! Whoohooo Yes my radiator committed suicide.. the good news is that mine is the cheap 3 series radiator.. and will only be $500 instead of $650 .. that also includes the guys at the shop replacing my water pump and timing belt.. so it works. But I'm going to be carless for a couple more days later this week.. Also.. my mother has sprung on me that I owe her for the car and all work done on the car.. even though I was not consulted in the purchase of the car.. Whatever.. doesn't seem fair.. but I'll pay her back.. my bills up to.. ooooh.. hmm.. $1900 now.. $500 for the car, $900 for various work the first time, and $500 for this next batch.. I've got the feeling that I'm going to wake up one day with cement shoes.. My mother the mafioso.. mafiosa? Whatever.. I can barely speak english properly, screw the finer details of other languages. Work Schedule for the week of Feb. 13th Mon- 7:45,4-7 Tue- 9-5 Wed- 7:45-1,4-7 Thurs- 7:45-2 Fri- OFF Sat- 7:45-12 Please note that all times are subject to change and I rarely get out exactly on time..Usually it's a half hour to an hour later than scheduled. Current Mood: Silly me.. optimism Current Music: Tom Petty- Zombie Zoo (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
1:20 am	Alotta BS! WOOT Heya everyone who havn't disowned me for not updating! Ok.. I've been being ill.. don't know why.. every time I have a day off I end up sickly and stuffy. Oh well.. regardless.. Upadate is as follows I GOT A RAISE!! I'm now worth 9$/hr (Shut up you people with dirty minds) Me gots to go dancin again!!! WOOT.. went with the Jamie and the Adelle.. The latter of whom managed somehow to find the only straight man in a gay bar.. it was fun.. Jamie made friends.. Adelle made friends.. and I kinda danced in my own little circle and my calves hurt.. Ok So goin with the George was better.. because whenever Jamie found a new person to dance with I had someone to turn to and I wasn't so alone.. but oh well.. I swallowed it all and forced myself to have a good time and naysayers be damned! Speaking of the crazy sibling thing.. (Jamie) He and I are hoping to make a trip up to Griffin GA soon.. Hoping to deliver a cute little baby ball python (L'il Snakey) to the Myr person.. and hang out at my Aunt's house for a week or so.. just to get out of here. At least that's the plan.. I asked my Aunt if we can come tonight.. and am anxiously awaiting her answer.. ::crosses her fingers:: OH!! And I'm being proud of him.. God I sound like a soccer mom.. But he borrowed $100 from me yesterday to help with rent and he promised that I'd get it back by Sunday.. he showed up tonight with it!! YAY! And he's being better with communication.. he called me up the other night and our conversation consisted of.. You bored? Yeah.. Wanna come over to the apt.? Sure.. So he came and got me.. and we watched (I'm ashamed to admit it) Buffy the Vampire slayer.. the musical episode.. and I will admit that it was highly ammusing.. even more funny when he tried to dance along with the show =D At the moment I have no car.. well.. scratch that.. I have a half-assed car.. The van's starter isn't working.. and my mom bought a 1987 BMW 325i for me for $500 at an auction. It's not a bad little car.. it needs some work on the drive shaft, the sunroof, and the a/c .. but the rest I can probably take care of with a trip to U-Pull-It.. Speaking of which.. anyone with a car wanna take me down there? =D Run around in a junk yard for the day? I think I'm going to start doing something new.. I'm going to start posting my schedule for each week on here.. that way people will know what's goin on when.. or as per usual in my life.. what's not going on.. Eh.. I take that back too.. Jamie's been being really nice about that.. if he doesn't have something preplanned he's been there to alleiviate some of the boredom.. Meaning I hangout over at the apt. drink tea and watch some dvd or other.. or.. as always, the great Boca Raton passed time.. DENNY'S! Reminds me.. I want to go to Denny's tomorrow night.. my friend Mara is back working the graveyard shift and she asked me to come in on Sundays.. like three weeks ago and I haven't been back in.. eep.. It's funny because Mara works the graveyard shift.. she also works for the county Morgue =D I make fun friends! And it's cool with her if I bring creatures.. George don't hit me.. it's the palmetto denny's anyway! Oh.. and in case anyone cares.. my little leopard gecko girl.. she's half normal and half tangerine.. she got loose last summer/fall.. Well I found her tonight.. Her tail looks like a raisen.. it's not good.. but her eyes aren't sunken in and she drank a lot of water.. hopefully she'll make it through the night and I can go up to Fins Furs N' Feathers or something for crickets tomorrow. I also have sent the email to Lauren, she runs the Alternative Pet Shows, asking her for the price of a table at the March show in West Palm. If I can afford a table.. I will take a selection of my collection and sell them.. As much as I love them I do know that I can't care for them all as well as I should.. And mom says she'll work with me about the one's I want to keep.. I plan on keeping my beardeds and my geckos, Monty, Irony, Alan, Ril, the Carpet pythons.. at least Neko and Aisha.. Hissy is gorgeous and ammusing.. but eh... and the colubrids.. corn snake and rat snake and boots. Pretty much all of the others are going to go.. if anyone would like to adopt one tell me. I have planned that moneys made from reptile sales will go toward buying Monty a nice big tank.. or at least into the supplies for building one. Adelle has been working on cleaning my house.. and she's kinda pissed at me because I don't do much.. I don't see much point..my mom buys more crap anyway.. and anything that gets cleaned gets covered in ten minutes more or less.. but I am going to try to start being better about that all. That's about it for the moment.. I think I'll go slip into the land of nod if my sinuses will let me. G'night Folks Current Mood: I get lost in my brain Current Music: Bon Jovi- Complicated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
1:55 am	I dun't knuuu Ok.. So I figured I'd put out an update just for the hell of it.. I've been sickly for the last 4 days. Still hacking up my lungs but I can eat solid foods YAY Um..Unfortunately I passed this lovely illness on to the Jamie and so now he's dead.. like to the point where he left class early today and called out of work.. and for him that's Hell's frozen over type sick.. I've never heard of him calling out from work in the last four years.. So I was over at his new apartment watching Family Guy, drinking tea, and mingling with the roomies.. Other than that.. Working at the vet's office is doing well.. Learning a lot of cool stuff. Due to my lack of a vehicle.. the van is kinda croaked.. no brakes and something's wrong with the starter.. my mom has been dropping me off and picking me up.. or else I walk.. but I left early on Sat. I threw up in the bathroom and they sent me home.. but Dr. stuck his head out the door to compliment me on how well I'm doing and kinda tell my mom that I'm doing well and not to worry and all that good stuff.. So YAY.. It's a good thing Jamie's never read one of these posts.. he thinks my writing is well formed and focused.. Hehe.. little does he know.. Muahahahaha However.. speaking of writing, I composed my first poem in about 7 years the other day.. I'll throw it on this post so everyone can laugh.. it's elementary. Anyway.. yeah.. that's about it.. still being confused about life.. does that ever go away? Probably not.. and if it did I'd probably worry that it shouldn't have. I'll throw in the poem and go to bed then.. I have to be up at 7am x.x Hot Summer's Day A long time past Time flies so fast Memories of days spent in the sun, laying in a field, or on the run.. Toward a far off goal, A truck laden with ice cream to cool the soul. Barefoot on the asphalt, sandspurs lurk in the grass.. Cool dribbles down the chin boiling heat, mirages surround, but cool, content, happy within. Like I said.. elementary.. but imagery isn't too bad.. right? Current Mood: content Current Music: Tocata and fugue in D minor- Bach (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
12:13 am	The conformity continues 1. Your Full Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite Color: 4. Favorite Movie: 5. Favorite Song: 6. Favorite Band: 7. Most Embarassing Moment: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on anybody/who? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. What do you think about me? 5. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I asked you? 6. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you: 7. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 8. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 9. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me? 10. Do you think I'm a good person? 11. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)? 12. Do you think I'm pretty? 13. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they don't involve you? 14. If you could change anything about me, would you? 15. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? 16. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? Also the crazy Myr person pestered me into a myspace.. be afraid. Ok Big news for everyone.. I dressed up girly for New Years.. And Amie's friend was kind enough to untangle my hair and put it up nicely.. and the Amis did my.. dun dun dun.. makeup.. And Jamie still looked more effeminate.. grrr... I fail even if I try. But oh well.. I did it.. people got pictures.. and it didn't burn as much as I thought =D I'm certainly not going to run around in a mini skirt.. but I do like my albeit form-fitting shirt.. and the slacks are comfy.. although technically they are a size or two bigger than they should be to fit as they were designed =P I cheated a little... The only really hard part to get used to is that eye gunk makeup stuff.. and not having 50-some pockets.. Ok that's about all the fun stuff for the moment.. My schedule for this week is 7:45-5 tomorrow, 7:45-2 Thurs and Fri.. I think I'm off on Sat.. and Damn it I wanna DO SOMETHING.. I can't take the coming home and just passing out or playing on the compy.. I love my computer friends.. but but I had a taste of getting out and doing stuff.. and I miss it.. Oh well.. maybe I'll get up the guts to start going to places and doing things by myself.. Or I'll be really well rested.. It works Night night guys Current Mood: restless Current Music: Flogging Molly (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 27th, 2005
2:19 am	Update of the monotony Ok.. umm... well for starters TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY YAY!!!!! I'm 19 years old today.. and quite surprised that I'm still alive.. woot Other than that little fact, I'm now working at a vet's office.. I'm hunting for a new-er car My buddies took me dancing a while ago and it was much much fun.. We danced for 3 hours and I managed to rub a hole in my foot.. remind me never to wear sandals if we go dancing again... My animal count has grown.... to an almost astronomical level.. and I'll have to sell off a lot of my creatures sometime in the near future.. ugh.. like getting rid of your children.. but I'm still kickin.. And I'm being sickly so I'm going to go pass out and hope I get better before tomorrow Nighty night Current Mood: sick Current Music: You're my disco- covenant? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
4:09 am	Uninteligeble ramblings (sue me for the bad spelling if you want to) Contrary to popular belief, Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious does not have every letter in the alphabet. It is possible to get chemical burns from an exploding jawbreaker. Proportionate to its body, the barnacle has the world's biggest penis (Thanks Agee for filling my mind with that fact) The meaning of life is 42 Hobbits do live outside MiddleEarth .. one lives in my house >.> The easiest fear to conquer is the fear of death; all you have to do is wait.. Cerberus lives in Hidden Valley Satan's concubine lives in Ft. Lauderdale in the home of the Not-So-Creepy-King. The absent minded professor owns 6 book stores and grumbles cause he has nothing to read. I'm pretty much done and am going to bed - This weekend I met a 63 year old woman who's never heard of a hobbit... very very sheltered. I've decided that I like Lake Wales... it's a really nice place.. a little upscale for my wallet.. but nice nonetheless. I've been feeling all night like I should write something in here.. I was actually contemplating trying my hand at poetry again after.. uh.. 6 years x.x but then decided that I didn't want to die tomorrow from wrathful friends. So.. that said.. nighty night Current Mood: woot... bleh Current Music: Voltaire- You bitch (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
1:55 am	Lost for Words - Pink Floyd I was spending my time in the doldrums I was caught in the cauldron of hate I felt persecuted and paralyzed I thought that everything else would just wait While you are wasting your time on your enemies Engulfed in a fever of spite Beyond your tunnel vision reality fades Like shadows into the night To martyr yourself to caution Is not going to help at all Because there'll be no safety in numbers When the Right One walks out of the door Can you see your days blighted by darkness? Is it true you beat your fists on the floor? Stuck in a world of isolation While the ivy grows over the door So I open my door to my enemies And I ask could we wipe the slate clean But they tell me to please go fuck myself You know you just can't win Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
1:46 am	As GIR would say.. "I DUN'T KNOW" Ok.. so I'm officially at the end of my rope so to speak.. I've discovered that when I feel that I've gotten in too deep with something I will remove myself almost entirely from said something. I like helping my friends when I can... and when I can't I do my best to lend a shoulder or an ear, which ever is needed most... but after I'm run in circles for a time I just blank out.. I do care.. and it hurts.. but I feel that I can be of no more help.. But I argue with myself that I can be of more help.. but then other friends tell me that I wouldn't do any good and would just upset myself.. but I'm upset anyway.. grrrrrr.. I've been pondering about emailing just some random person.. or maybe Dr. Phil or something.. the more I think about it the more I feel that I know nothing at all and am in fact completely loopy.. but then I have to ask if I'd notice that I was loopy if, in fact, I were? I just don't know.. I suppose I've fallen into a bit of a depression again.. but it'll probably be gone by tomorrow.. and then I'll feel worse because I know I should feel bad but I don't.. If anyone can decode my mind, please let me in on the secret. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: Pink Floyd - Lost for Words (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
3:18 pm	damn quiz 1. Go here. 2. Pass it on. ( my answers ) (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 14th, 2005
4:31 am	Just a peek Heya everyone.. I was prodded, goaded, cursed and growled into hopping on here.. And now my friend can no longer be angry with me.. he knows who he is. Anyway.. I went to Steaknshake tonight with this amigo of mine.. Which, for all the horrible service and stale strawberry shortcakes.. turned out to be a pretty good night. Not quite sure why.. but a good night nonetheless. As it is.. its 4:30 am and I'm doing laundry and playing on here.. and looking forward to going to work in the morning. Come to think of it I'm probably only happy and chipper because I'm sleep deprived at the moment. Yay. It's rush atthe bookstore.. a.k.a the beginning of fall classes at the college. And so I've been neglecting and shorting my friends.. I'm sorry guys.. I really am trying to appease everyone.. but with everybody's conflicting schedules and preferences about who they're willing to hangout with and who they aren't.. and curfews and all that other schiedt.. It's getting hard to wrap my little brain around it all. I think I need to have it cleaned out so I can store more stuff in there.. it's getting cluttered just like the rest of my life. Ok.. my mind is wandering again.. I was just staring off into space for about five minutes. So I'm going to be all happy and put in a good song. G'night "Everything in this room is eatable! Even I am eatable, but that, children, is called cannibalism and is in fact frowned upon in most societies." Johnny Depp- Willy Wonka and the Chocolate factory Current Mood: Woot Current Music: Mark Knopfler- Done with Bonaparte (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 28th, 2005
12:05 am	Recent fighting amongst friends Ok.. Here's my say in all of this. Were Ray's actions the right ones? NO! Should he be condemned for the rest of his life? NO Does the little snake care anymore? Probably not As long as this tragedy is learned from.. then he didn't die in vain. I will miss him.. I will love him.. and I will carry the burden of his memory in my breast for all time. I hope Ray will learn from these bad decisions and make better ones in the future. This is not a cause to break friendships.. this is a time that should be spent in mourning and memory.. not that there are many of those.. This is not an occaision for bickering.. and Ray.. burying your head in the sand will not help.. what you did was wrong.. suck it up and take your punishment in the eyes of your peers and friends.. it'll only help to cement his memory into your brain! It can't hurt any.. it's a good thing that you'll be reminded of it.. you'll never forget! For the record.. I did my best for the baby ball.. I believe if we'd caught it earlier.. like when he was first quarantined.. he could've been saved by a vet. He had no more pimples on his skin when he died.. showing that he was doing better until his little body gave out. I will freeze him tonight and bury him on the morrow.. anyone who cares to come may.. I will have to work so it'd be after work. Ray.. Amie.. You're both cool people.. Ray suck it up.. Amie .. a little less vocferous would probably be good.. I think he understands now. He hurt people as well as the baby.. he hurt his friends.. and he hurt his dependant python.. he will learn and if he doesn't I will go down to Griffs and buy a pair of metal toed cowboy boots and kick him squarely in the **** and he knows it! I'm willing to give him one more chance.. and he'd better learn from this or there will be hell to pay.. you guys have never seen me really mad.. and I sincerly hope that you never do. Current Mood: Hell hath no wrath... (1 Comment |Comment on this)